lauraldanne's blabbernothings

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last night, i found out that officer na pala ako sa ISA. haha. how amusing. despite not being able to attend the meeting/election last month, i still managed to get elected. how grand is that? awesome.

ISA's first meeting was held this afternoon. at wala ulit ako. haha. anong klaseng officer ka, Laureen? well,what can i do? i had class. i stopped by the ISO to ask about the agenda and whaddaya know, they decided to move the next meeting to a time that i would be able to make it. haha. special. special child with special needs. anywho, i think it's cool.

it's the first time that i'm taking the reigns as the official money-handler. yupyupyup,isa akong Treasurer. for the first time in my life. i've been elcted president, vice president, secretary (twice pa), and PRO. never a Treasurer. until last month. cool.

so yeah, mejo intimidating lang kasi i have to take extra care of the benjamins put in my care for the rest of the year. i must not disappoint my constituents. bwahaha.

happy birthday!

happy birthday, nick carter!!!

ahahahahahaha. bleh :p oo, naaalala ko pa.

sakit na ng likod ko. magtatrabaho pa ako bukas.

good night, friendster.

hello, eavesdropper.

i absolutely love it when my prayers are answered when i least expect it.

for the entire week i've been fervently praying to God that i see my friend just to be sure that my friend wasn't avoiding me for some reason unimaginable.

every night, i whispered to God to please please please make it possible for my friend and i to bump into each other as a sign that we still do have a friendship burning. and whaddaya know, as i was getting off the escalator on the 3rd floor from the second floor, i see my friend getting off the escalator on the same floor from the opposite direction.

so for posterity's sake...

"hello."

"hello."

"how are you?"

"tired. and kinda down."

"down?"

"yeah, my books are weighing me down."

"oh. yeah, mine are, too. where are you headed off to?"

"cafeteria. it's lunch time."

"uh-huh."

"i'll see you later, ok." (hugs exchanged)

"wait, what's your schedule like?"

"i'm here [all day]."

"mmmhmmm. did you change your number?"

"what number do you have?"

"......?"

"oh, i don't have that anymore. i don't have a phone right now. i have a pager."

"uh, that isn't much help."

"yeah. well, T-Mobile sucks."

"my parents have T-Mobile."

"ok, maybe not so much."

"yeah, but they think it sucks, too."

"yeah."

*silence*

"ok. well, see you later."

"yeah, later." (hugs exchanged)

"call me."

"i'll try."

and that was that. and our friendship goes on.

no more freezer burn

pasukan na bukas. yeah. for sure na toh. wala nang Winter Blast kaekekan. the weather is fine. the highway is no more frozen. well, the heck...if it was still frozen, i still would go to school if alamo district told me to. ahaha. i am so lame, i know it.

anywho, sana pumasok rin sya. you know, para may kasama akong tumambay. AND sana di rin ako sunduin nang maaga ng aking mahal na ama na ayaw akong papasukin sa eskuwelahan. hmph. but i'm so bored at home. walaang magawa. i really need to get back to school. diba? diba? diba? para meron na ulit akong makwento sa blog ko.

oh yeah, this is Suburbia. a view from my backyard. no, that isn't snow. that is sleet. it didn't snow on my side of the woods on Hill Country in in Southern Texas. boring. but the view was quite pretty anyway.

i was gonna go out sana. pero bad trip tong weather sa Texas. everything froze over. and i got the sniffles. so even if my friends and i did end up planning something fun to do during the last weekend, i still wouldn't be able to make it. not cool. being sick sucks.

i didn't really do anything blab-worthy during the "winter" break. (some will say 'vacation,' but it was WAY to short to call it that, so i'm sticking to 'break') starting school will give me something to complain about. ahaha. all i've been doing is watching loads of TV and complaining about how my "bunkmate" drives me to the brink of my sanity. oh help me, Lord.

so yeah, papasok na ako. so i gotta scramush, so i can get up early tomorrow. later, skaters.

tigilan mo ako

just typing out loud. literally.

wag ka ngang reklamo nang reklamo. tignan mo na't ang lalim na ng crease dyan sa forehead mo. para kang hindi babaeng biente-tres anyos lang.

eh kasalanan ko bang may mga taong nakaka-irita at pilit nang sinisiksik ang kanilang buhay sa vicinity ko. sila rin ang may kasalanan kung bakit ako nakaka-hanap ng ikare-reklamo ko. kung namili lang sila ng ibang lugar na pagkakalatan ng kanilang lagim, eh di at peace sana ako buong taon ng 2006.

kaya, please lang...sana layuan narin nila ako ngayon noh. para matupad ko NYR ko. you know, as in New Year's Resolution. oo, meron narin ako nun. na-realize ko kagabi while laying sleepless na meron pala akong gustong baguhin sa sarili ko. kasi dati, nung nagsimula yung taon, iniisip ko na wala naman talaga akong gustong baguhin...dahil tinatamad akong mag-isip. ahaha. LAME-O.

ayun, so gusto kong mejo bawas-bawasan yung pagre-reklamo ko. kasi napansin ko na pag may kausap ako at ka-kwentuhan, laging reklamo ang ginagawa ko. tsktsk. good luck sa'kin.

every day gets better

i've told two lifelong friends of the whole story. i've shared the sordid details with about a handful of curious new friends. i gave the same spiel, without missing a beat on every occasion. and it's funny because the more times i told it, the more i became confused about how it really started to end.

and as usual, in the wee hours of the morning, i decided to go online and dig through my archives and find out how it all started...how this mess was unraveled. and as usual, my Friendster blog gets the first dibs on the scoop.

it was my mistake. i started it. i shouldn't have run my mouth like that. it was totally uncalled for. i should've just let the cards fall where they were supposed to. i shouldn't have stopped what was supposed to be a peaceful good-bye, instead i asked that the person stay for a while and let go of the steam in my presence. and it just got me into this abyss. it was actually absurd how that conversation started. it was quite shallow really. i can't believe all this started with weight issues. OMG. but what else can i do? what's done is done.

whether or not i said something uncalled for, it would've ended the same way - the end. that's what we call fate. it was the inevitable.

i don't have to cry over spilled milk. all i can do is move on from it and take the lessons learned, hoping that the person who shared that conversation with me feels the same way.